It’s hard to explain..what I feel. In my head I have this picture perfect scene where we’re both madly in love with each other. But then there’s reality..unwilling to cooperate with my thoughts. I don’t even know though, to be honest. Because I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel after all these years except simply awkward. That’s just it. This whole situation I’ve managed to get myself into is just so unbelievably awkward. I don’t know whether I’d have it any other way, either. In my head I think I’m falling in love with him, but in actuality, I know it’s all just this big, twisted scenario I’ve only made up. It’s like I’m in love with the idea of being in love. But then again, isn’t everyone? Media underestimates the true meaning of love. No, it’s not just about saying, “I’m in love with you,” it’s about truly feeling it. (cliché; but true) Does it have to be through sexual intercourse? Maybe so. In my opinion, it is possible to fall in love with any human being-given the appropriate time. That’s just it. The timing of falling in love is what makes it so spontaneous. Whether it be with someone 3 years older, 2 years younger, the opposite sex; it doesn’t matter. Because when you know, you know, At least that’s what I’ve been told.